3 months!

Three Months BABY! Coolio, right? It sure is. Nash and me are so cute, it's true. Hee hee. *Doin' the happy dance* LALALA"i've got you under my skinI've got you deep in the heart of meSo deep in my heart, that you're really a part of meI've got you under my skinI've tried so not to give inI've said to myself this affair never will go so wellBut why should i try to resist, when baby will i know than wellThat i've got you under my skinI'd sacrifice anything come what mightFor the sake of having you nearIn spite of a warning voice that comes in the nightAnd repeats, repeats in my earDon't you know you fool, you never can winUse your mentality, wake up to realityBut each time i do, just the thought of youMakes me stop before i begin'cause i've got you under my skin'cause i LOVE you under my skin."

Snow ruins my...

Snow ruins my plans. I usually like the snow. Today I dont like the snow. It makes everything boring. Stupid snow.La nieve arruina mis planes. Quiero generalmente la nieve. Hoy yo me puse quiere la nieve. Hace aburrir de todo. Nieve estúpida. La neige ruine mes projets. J'aime d'habitude la neige. Aujourd'hui j'ai mis aime la neige. Il fait tout ennuyant. Neige stupide. Schnee vernichtet meine Pläne. Ich mag gewöhnlich den Schnee. Heute ich mag dont den Schnee. Es macht alles, zu bohren. Dummer Schnee. La neve rovina i miei progetti. Amo di solito la neve. Oggi ho indossato come la neve. Tutto fa il noioso. Neve stupida. Sneeuw verwoest mijn plannen. Ik hou gewoonlijk van de sneeuw. Vandaag ik houdt dont van de sneeuw. Het maakt alles dat vervelent. Domme sneeuw. Снег разрушает мои планы. Я обычно подобно снегу. Сегодня я не люблю снег. Это делает все скучным. Глупый снег.雪毀坏我的計划。我通常喜歡雪。今天我 dont 象雪一樣。制作討厭的一切。愚蠢的雪。Nash est sur le feu !

Ya' Friday Fucktard!

Another week has ended, and so has another semster. At least for me. Wow, this semester has gone by so fast, i cant believe it. It's kinda sad, cuz i loved all my classes. I'll miss them....*sigh* Hopefully i'll enjoy next semester......hopefully. Man, i finally get to enjoy high school on my last year (which almost didnt happen) and soon i'll have to say goodbye to everyone all over again....it gets old after awhile. I just wanna stay somewhere i enjoy....and here is not the place, but i DO wanna move somewhere i LOVE and just stay there...happy and such. Actually, all i really want is to sleep. Sleep all day, no worries. Just sleep, then do whatever the hell i feel like. No one nagging me, no one to please, just me. That would be nice.Me and Nash are almost to our 3 months of going out. lol. How cute. Although I'm getting tired of all you damn purvs pressuring us to do.....things. DAMIT, we'll do 'em when we damn well please and when there is a time and place....DAMIT.Hmm....66 days till my birthday....wow...I'll be 18! I CAN SMOKE! AND BUY PORN!SWEEET! I cant wait!"Head over heals I've fit in beforeNow I don't want to do it no moreI've held it all in with blood on my faceBuilt it up man so bad you can tasteI don't slag no oneI don't even judgeDon't give a shit cause I'm not gonna budgeI just want to be who I want to beGuess that's hard for others to seeI'm not a trendy assholeI do what I wantI do what I feel likeI'm not a trendy assholeDon't give a fuck if it's good enough for youCause I'm aliveSmash is the way you feel all aloneLike an outcast you're out on your ownSmash is the way you deal with your lifeLike an outcast you're smashing your strifeHead over heals I've fit in beforeNo I don't want to do it no moreI just want to be who I want to beGuess that's hard for the others to see"

Day off.

This morning sucked. I woke from a bad dream. It wasnt a nightmare or anything like that, but it had the person I dispise the most in the whole world....enough that i wish death apon him....a hate him. So yeah, that bumed me out for the morning. Oh well, at least i DID get to exercise this evening. That felt good. I'm tired now, but it's a good...achieved..tired. I've missed it."I've been a loser all my life, I'm not about to change. If you dont like it, there's the door, nobody made you stay"srry, that's a line from a song i was listening to...seems to fit me.Hmmm....a good paintball game sounds fun as hell right now. I should get a big group of people, all go get some paintball gear, get in my back yard, and just start shooting each other. That would be totally badass. WHO'S WITH ME? I also wanna make a little skit movie thingie kinda like the Daily Show, with fake news and stuff, and have everyone in it, going over whats really happening today. That, too, would be badass.Me tired....school tomorrow...blah. At least I got a new backpack. YAY. Hmm...how i get entertained by the simple things."It's seven in the morning and your walking out the doorYou got no time for coffeeI'm starring here remembering when my kisses made you lateGonna take a minute for my morning meditationBut I'm on the phone call... waiting... click... doneUnder an invasion I feel likeI'm a spinning ball in a lottery cageIf we aren't making love how can we be lovers?Gonna post a vacancy sign under the coversBefore it gets to late I'm gonna sayStop what you're doing and love me nowI'm making my move come on and love me nowI come home so tired just wanna put my feet upYou watch Letterman and eat something old I heat upThen we both fall asleep before the rooster starts to crowNo time to fight we pretend love is so sweetWhen all we're missing is what's between the sheetsUsed to find an hour between start and goWhat ever happened to staying up all night?When the bed became our island and it was just you and IOur troubles would slip away when we saidStop what you're doing and love me nowI'm making my move come on and love me nowTime... time...Time... time... time...All we need's a little time.Just you and I, magic rideIf we aren't making love how can we be lovers?Gonna post a vacancy sign under the coversBefore it gets to late I'm gonna sayStop what you're doing and love me nowI'm making my move come on and love me nowStop what you're doing and love me nowI'm making my move come on and love me now"

SNOW, HOLY CRAP!

HEY EVERYONE! It's snowing! And No SCHOOL TOMORROW! How awesome is that?! It's friggin' awesome, it is! Hmm, snow is so romantic. Hmm...so fluffy, so white, so cute when it lands on Nash's face...ER! I mean WHAT?! Sorry sorry, me acting retarted. Snow is fun to fall in, cuz it's soft. Although it IS cold, and cold isnt that fun, unless you're inside next to a nice warm fire. MMMMMM. A warm fire, in a cabin. On a nice warm carpet under nice warm blankets reading a wonderful novel, next to that special someone. MMMMM, nice.I'm watching a spoof movie called FATAL INSTINCT (1992). It's pretty funny, i enjoy it. It's not nearly as good as movies such as HOT SHOTS, but it's still worth watching.I feel frisky for some reason, whatever that means. I'm not quite sure what i mean by it, but it seem to be the word that fit. How bout you jut ignore what i just said. Yeah.I'm tired. I think it's the weather. Well at least I dont have school tomorrow. But what is a poor girl to do for a whole day with no school? What is there to do, in the soft romantic snow? What WHAT WAHT?!

Three Day Weekend comes to an end.....DAMN

Even though we had an extra day to the weekend, it still was WAY to short. Not cool. I need like another week or something.hmm, as cold as it is, i feel warm and fluffy, i would like to thank a certain someone *wink* *grin*eh hem, anways.Vouge Vouge...let your body move to the music...sorry, have that in my head...anywaysWell, I got Eddie Izzard today, that guy is HILLARIOUS! Funny transvestite brittish dude. Yup, good stuff. I need money though. DAMN Dustin wont call me for an interview. I NEED MONEY MAN! DAMN IT!So....hm....dont really know what to type....so i guess i'll write tomorrow then.....well alrightie, peace out...

FINNALLY, this damn thing works again!

Hey everyone, how's it kickin? It's ok over here. OK, i've got an idea for all us 2005 graduates! I wanna get all our buddies and their parents to go to this italian restraunt in DC calle Puca De Bepo's or something like that....i'm not sure if thats completely correct. But anyways, it's the kind of place where you get like 40 people at a time and they give you a shitload of food. It's a bit exspencive, but if our parents pay for us for graduation, it would all work out. I think it's a kickass idea and the food is GREAT! Be sure to let me know what you guys think!"And I'd give up forever to touch youCause I know that you feel me somehowYou're the closest to heaven that I'll ever beAnd I don't want to go home right nowAnd all I can taste is this momentAnd all I can breathe is your lifeCause sooner or later it's overI just don't want to miss you tonightAnd I don't want the world to see meCause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's made to be brokenI just want you to know who I amAnd you can't fight the tears that ain't comingOr the moment of truth in your liesWhen everything feels like the moviesYeah you bleed just to know you're aliveAnd I don't want the world to see meCause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's made to be brokenI just want you to know who I amI don't want the world to see meCause I don't think that they'd understandWhen everything's made to be brokenI just want you to know who I amI just want you to know who I amI just want you to know who I amI just want you to know who I amI just want you to know who I am"The GOO GOO DOLLS-"Iris"

I feel like shit-tah!

UHHGG, my knees hurt...and my sister is pissing me off. I just relized that i may be obsessive compulsive. I noticed that when my routine gets messed with, i get hella mad, and thats not good. So, yeah, right now, i'm hella irritable.THERE IS NOTHING BUT SHIT ON TV, what the hell is going on! And i have no new movies to watch, so that's ALSO pissing me off. I'm watching my HOT SHOTS right now, which is a good movie, so i'm OK for now. I can really relate to Topper Harley. Hmm...odd.*Sigh* I'm tired of school. It's boring and stupid. Hopefully second semester will be better.I need to lift some weights, I'm way too stressed right now. hmm. arrg. i think one reason why people around me dont know how stressed, pissed off, depressed, or whatever the case, i really am is because of the "defence mechanism" that i outwardly become hyper and excessively "happy" to others. We talked about this is psycology, and it's exactly how i am. On the outside i seem like a bouncy happy party kind of person, on the inside, i'm a bitter, pissed, sometimes depressed, irritable little person. It's hard to tell when i'm really happy or when i'm fake happy....blah. Oh well. As of now, i'm pissed, but i'll try not to act that way. I hope it's not unhealthy. How to i get my agression out?HAHA, hot shots is funny....BTW....NASH IS HOTT